What are you looking for?


I read a post today on Facebook that asked if you had a list of qualities you wanted in a spouse. When I was young and stupid....no I didn't, but now yes I do. My list, however has been evolving over trail and error, and the coarse of many years. I have learned many things over the years about people and as look back to when I was young I had no idea what I wanted then. Did I like certain things about certain people, yes, specially when I gave myself more time to get to know someone. I made many decisions out of fear, and impatience when I was young. That was a huge mistake. I found that I repeated that mistake again with my second marriage and it didn't work out then either. I have though between the two marriages learned quite a bit about myself, life, and what I want. I have very strong convictions about religion and have found by experience that I want someone with those same strong convictions. You can not control someone's loyalty in a marriage and I want someone who is just as vested in the relationship as I am, and I want their behavior to be respectful to our bond as husband and wife. I want someone that I can discuss anything with, someone who is responsible in all aspects of their life, and someone who can be and understands spiritual things. I want to feel like his true partner. In the past I have been treated like a child, being told what to do and never really was allowed an opinion about anything. I want to know that our life is ours together not just his or not just mine, that is important to me. He should always know that I love him and vice versa. We should be able to agree about our future and make comprises with each other so both our wishes are included.
Reading back over what I've written it sounds like a wonderful dream, but I think its possible. I will hold on to that hope that there is someone out there that wants those same things.....someday I want to feel that feeling again being held in his arms that I'm home, safe, and loved.

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