Seeing past the Inperfections


When I write it is usually personal and about things that have been thought provoking or something I have experienced that impacted me in some way. My own imperfections have always been something that has caused me to be frustrated. Learning to overcome something is one thing but I have noticed that many people don't always let you progress past something. Have you had someone stand in your way, or tell you your not good enough, to tell you no matter how hard you tried that you would never be anything. I have. And I don't nor have I ever believed any of those things that were said and done to me. People can be very mean, they don't see you as the savior does. I made specific decisions that I thought were best for the growth and education of my children. I have made some huge mistakes in my life but when I became a mom my focus changed. I tired to find the things I wanted in my life but protecting and doing what was best for my kids was where I found my most joy. Patience has never been my strength, lack of, has actually caused me a lot of heartache. Thru all of the trials and heartache I have experienced I know that god has always had a plan, I know there is a balance and through my struggles and trials I was able to lift and educate my kids. Someday my own happily ever after will come, but as a mother right now it is still my job to sacrifice for my kids, to lift them, to give them the tools, knowledge, strength, and faith to live the kinds of lives pleasing to god.

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