Road to Discovery



   So this is me many, many years ago before I got married and had kids. In this picture I am 22 and serving a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. That was a changing point in my life. I left from Texas where I decided to go on a mission instead of a career as a model. Best decision ever!! Serving a mission I continued a journey of discovering myself and strengthening the beliefs I already had. In Texas I had already started discovering things that I really loved, things that I had not been exposed to growing up in a rural town in North Idaho. I discovered I loved the theater, I learned how to drive a shift when the streets were flooding, I experienced the best date I have ever had....That being a certain guy asked me read scriptures with him after a date...that to this day has been my most favorite date. I don't remember what we read but I do remember how I felt...and it was so honorable and just plain cool. On my mission a learned about service and learned to talk to people....I have always had a more introverted personality, so that was really good for me.


   After my mission, which was for 18 months, I returned home to Idaho instead of going back to Texas. After staying for a short while in Idaho I returned to Utah. In Utah I got a job, starting going to cosmetology school (which I learned to dislike very much), got another job....was promoted to management and then I quit school. Working 2 full time jobs and going to school full time was just too much...I was starting to get sick. At this point in my life I was sick of dating, and made some rash decisions and married a man I didn't truly love. Although I didn't love him a had made a commitment and I tried to stick with it for many years. I say I didn't love him, but that's not entirely true, I don't think you can spend that much effort and time with someone without having some kind of love there, I think the love that I am speaking of is the kind of love that is passionate, kind, understanding, forgiving, the kind of love that makes you feel safe and like you've come home....it wasn't that kind of love.   I had 6 children with this man over 12 years. I have 4 boys, 2 of which are twins, and 2 girls. I love my children more then anything.


I will talk about how I chose to raise my children in a later entry that I will dedicate strictly to talking about that subject. I have been asked many times how I raised such awesome kids...so I am currently putting together my thoughts and information for that entry.


I divorced my fist husband in 2006 and remarried outside my faith..I think that will be another entry too....So that being said I will end this entry with hope that you find my story interesting enough to return another day. Thanks for visiting.

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