Dawning Thoughts

I have been married twice and learned a great deal from both situations. In my first marriage it was a disaster from the beginning. I just flat out never should have married him but because I made a commitment I tried for years to make it work. In my second marriage I was head over heals in love with my husband, I'd even goes as far as saying I was addicted to him. However he had some behaviors I was unfamiliar with and I experienced some very deep heartache with him. He is a perpetual liar, he was constantly lying to me about other woman and what he was doing. I would receive phone calls from woman saying that they loved my husband, had some that would drop cards and gifts off at the house leaving them on our porch, not knowing I lived there since he was lying to them as well. I had someone even forward me emails where he was arranging to meet someone at a bed and breakfast and another one that talked about him spending the weekend with her at her apartment. I was broken, spe