Dawning Thoughts

When I was young no one thought I would ever have kids. I wouldn't have anything to do with children what so ever. I babysat horses, and I enjoyed that very much. I don't actually think having kids in my future ever crossed my mind. Now with that being said when I got pregnant with my first child I experienced a complete change. I was experiencing many challenges with my marriage but I did not get married to get divorced so I stuck it out so it was hard to enjoy being pregnant. I spent a lot of time alone and feeling alone therefore I studied my scriptures in conjunction with raising children. I have used that knowledge to raise my kids. I taught my kids what NO meant, that there are consequences to their actions at a young age and now that they are older they make good choices and are great kids. I support my children in their education and I try to give them the opportunities to excel at the things they enjoy and to pursue their dreams. I also try to teach them about spi

I find it interesting how answers to prayers have presented themselves in my life. I thank the Lord every day for his guide and protection in my life. I have recently had some things I was pondering over for the last week, then low and behold, the Lord sent someone to knock on my door, to send me the answer I needed. I am also grateful to have the eyes to be able to see that this was a wonderful answer to the prayer that I had in my heart. Isn't it amazing how when we have a prayer in our heart and have a desire for God to guide and direct our lives that he will in fact guide us? Looking back I see Gods hand in steering my life, however he did let me make wrong choices, but I did learn a great deal from them. In review, I can see that my impatience was one of the biggest reasons I didn't see or hear the answers I was looking for from the Lord. The Lord allows us to make our own choices and he is an overwhelmingly patient loving Father in Heaven. He allows us to learn, gr

Patience has never been one of my strong points. In life I have made many mistakes because I was not patient, and yet I still don't think I have learned patience. To wait is almost terrifying. Its the not knowing, being unsure of things that effect me the most I think. It is my nature to like to feel safe, secure, reassured, to have a knowledge that the things I want most in life will someday be. Being told to have patience and to wait on the Lords timing is extremely trying. To many times I have let life effect me and I have found myself reprimanding myself, actually arguing with my inner self saying 'Your in idiot, why do you do this to yourself'. Each time telling myself to knock it off, but you know what? It's really hard. I see in my mind my resolve to put myself back where I would like to be but life makes that difficult, It is difficult not having outside support and only relying on yourself to lift yourself up. It sometimes seems like a vicious circle